Well.. by the title.. You would think I was talking about "I love you".. but if you thought that... Im sorry.. but today must not be your lucky day..

Now.. let's say you have an older brother.. You've never gotten along ALL the time.. but you have spent quality time together.. had nice conversations.. when you were growing up spent all your summers together riding bikes, playing in sprinklers, and in your case.. for you and your brother.. growing up on a farm.. A lot of land.. a lot of things to do outside.. you'd spend HOURS just out at a sand pit.. with your little brother also.. and sometimes not even come up until dark.. never even thought about eating lunch.. You have SoOo many memories together.. And all the pictures.. when you look through pictures, you cry.. just remembering all those times..

Throughout the past year you think on and off about him growing up.. you cry.. knowing he's going to eventually be leaving soon.. even though you don't want him gone..

Through all the fights and I hate you's.. You know.. the "I hate you"'s you just say without really meaning.. and all in all through everything.. You still love him.. even if you don't know it..

Well.. recently you two start fighting .. a lot.. the main reason.. The love of his life is at stake.. let alone.. you don't know this.. you just know that you and her don't get along... you don't argue or fight with eachother really.. but just do little things to make eachother mad..

Well.. You and your brother are fighting.. and he looks right at you.. and says those Three Little Words.. Which mean SO much when actually meant.. I hate you.. right there.. you know you're crushed.. you try to stay in there.. but no.. you break down crying.. harder than before.. as the words continue.. You're the reason my life is being destroyed.. she's going to move out and Im never going to see her.. And you WANT her gone.. and she's going to leave.. and it just goes on and on.. even though you're still crying from just the three little words..

Well.. Then your brother's girlfriend storms out of the house.. You, not knowing she had been thinking of moving in with her dad.. now your the main reason she is moving out..

Your brother leaves.. they both were headed to college..

One of your little brothers call to ask him something.. he's on his cell phone. in the car driving.. but this time.. Crying.. Your older brother is Crying.. and why?.. because of you.. You drove out his girlfriend.. You're ruining his life.. and he doesn't want you there anymore.. He just wishes you would disappear... So everything could be better...

You cry.. and cry.. You feel so bad.. all you wanted was for her to move out.. but no.. not now.. not now that he hates you.. like REALLY meaningfully HATES you.. and he's going to hate you even more now.. because the person he loves is moving out..

Well.. All in All.. the person you've always secretly looked up to...

Now is the one who makes you feel lower than ever...